Hello,👋
How are you doing? I hope it is not too late to wish you a happy new month🤩. I pray lines fall in pleasant places for you. I am happy to write to you today. I wanted to write to you last week but I had an exam so I just could not. Anyhoo, anyhoo. I am back and you can always give me the gist of what happened with you last week.
On my end, I am fine. I am learning daily to ease into God. I am learning to rest even when my heart is telling me not to. I am learning to ignore the negative voices in my head. I am learning to trust God. However, I have come to realize that trusting God is one of the toughest things to do as a believer. It is easy to say that you trust God when things are working the way you want them to. What about when things don't seem to go according to your plans? In those moments you have to continuously remind yourself that it is just a phase. It will pass. But how soon?
Sometimes I wish I could write when I feel emotionally drained. These past months, I have had different moments. The high-happy moments. The low-down moments. The in-between moments. The just-push-through moments. However, there is an interesting one; the refusal-to-feel moments. This particular one has become constant. Thus, it led to an emotional breakdown last week. I cried. A lot. I had this heavy burden. It was relieving to just cry out my feelings and at the same time painful to me. Just an outpouring of the things I wanted to change, the things I had no control over, and even about the year 2022(which has not ended yet). Well, I am God's crybaby with my full chest😂
My cries made me feel better. I went to God with my vulnerability which he wants so much. I believe it is important to highlight here to you that there are many times that your 'string-willed' nature will fail you. It does not even have to be a big issue. It just proves to you how frail we are as humans. And it is fine. I accept that I am not strong enough. I accept I can cry and cry as many times as I want even because of the little things. It does not make me less human. It just makes me know why I can't do without God. The burdens and troubles life throws at us will shake us. Regardless, I am not doing this life alone. I have God who is always ready to carry my burdens and yours as well.
More importantly, I want you to know that whatever situation you are faced with, God can be more than trusted. Sometimes I find it hard to trust him completely because it just looks like the challenge does not seem to end or things are not going the way I want. However, God says his timing is not mine. His ways are not mine and His thoughts are not mine. Still, I don't have the full hack of trusting him but what I do know is that you don't have to get it right trusting him at once. It is a gradual process. He will train your heart to completely do his will. He works in you to do and to the will of his good pleasure. Trusting in him is his good pleasure and he will work it out in you.
On some days I wake up with questions as to why and when certain things will happen. I get really curious and anxious. He does not explain to me in detail. But he reminds me again about trusting him and so I give him my childlike faith and I know he is intentionally building his trust in me. On some other days, I just let go with no questions whatsoever because I know everything he wants for me is in his good pleasure. This is to show you that it is a process.
In this new week, I want you to know that God is ready to train your heart to trust him. He is on the journey with you and me. He can be more than trusted.
God can be more than trusted
I wish you a great week✨
All my love + everything nice💜
The Purple Girl
Nice one. Thank you so much for this.❤️✨
“God can be more than trusted❤”.
Thank you for the reminder to trust God and His plans for us...Life can get so confusing and sad at times but knowing that God will work it out eventually is comforting enough.
And do have a great week too.