These days, I am flexing my mail days. I think it is because I am at home and I am trying to take things slow and not beat myself up about anything. But I hope I can get back to my normal routine when I get back to school.
Anyhoo, how are you doing? I sincerely hope that life has been treating you well. I am open to listen to you too.🤗
Today, I don’t know how I feel writing to you. I am always in high spirits whenever I decide to pour out my heart to you. At the same time, whenever I try to conceive the words for ‘how I am doing’, I most times want to avoid using the casual ‘I am fine’ reply. I feel it is basic and at best dismissive at times. Personally, I would prefer to rant about everything because that is what I want to do these days. So, to you, whenever you are asked ‘how are you doing?’ I hope you will answer from a place of awareness about your exact mood, experiences and feelings regarding how life has been to you. It is okay if you are not ready to reply as you should or you cannot exactly place your feelings into words.😊
Well, today I am going to be sharing with you how God has been dealing with me these past few weeks. God has been so intentional about everything with me and tbh I feel like I just say it all the time without considering the extent of His intentionality with me.
I am realizing that when God says he loves me, he loves me unconditionally. He has loved me before I came to the knowledge of him, began to draw closer to Him and even before I saw myself as his own.
I am realizing that he can be so intentional that he plans my life step by step when I am oblivious about all of it. He is literally piecing my life before my eyes but I don’t see it until it unfolds in His time. He has the big picture and He deliberately places me in situations I most times will not want to be in just to show me the parts of me he wants me to see. God sees where I am struggling, he knows I am struggling, he knew I will struggle.😂 However, he still prepared a helper for me- The Holyspirit, to help me, teach me, tell me again and again that I can do the will of God no matter how hard it seems or looks like.
Moreover, I am learning about seasons. I am learning to discern them. I am learning not to abort seasons. This has become very pivotal to my growth these days. I am learning that sometimes God can place me on a strange path different from my laid out plans. Paths that make me pass through fire. The fire of holiness, fire of patience, and the fire of love. I am learning that these seasons will not make sense at first when you begin but God knows why he wants you and I here. So I am praying more than ever before that he helps me go through the seasons he has prepared for me in the way he wants me to go through them.
For the past two weeks, I have been drawing closer to God. His words have become life to me speaking precisely to me. While at other times, they don’t make sense immediately until he opens up my heart to them and I am enlightened about his will.
I was scared about this new season. It is different. It is deeper and requires doing the thingsI have openly confessed to do. It requires me to shine as a light even in trying times. It requires me to love my enemies, to be humble to the point of obedience as Jesus was, to pray for those who spitefully use and persecute me and to tolerate the flaws in the humanity of people over and over. I am required to love those who definitely will not show love in return to me, to give to those who may never repay, to respect people who are willing to walk over others and to have the mind of Christ in all things.
And tbh, I have struggled. It would have to deny myself a lot. It appears that I would have to choose weakness even in situations where my strength is available. It has required me being an actual doer of the words of Christ more than just saying it like a crammed verse, a song or a hymn. Well, this is the part where you and I struggle most times. We say we would choose to show love but when we are presented with situations requiring our commitment to love, do we show love? Do we forgive? Do we choose our patience and humility over the raging pride and anger in our hearts?
The truth also remains that we can’t do these things by ourselves. This is not how our human nature has been trained. This is not the way the world wants you to behave. So you will need to outsource this ability in yourself to the Holyspirit as he helps you and I to surrender to the mind of Christ urging us in these situations to do the will of God.
I want you to know that you are not in this season of your life by chance or by accident. It has been perfectly woven together by God to birth what he wants to bring out of you. I can’t guarantee that you will have a smooth ride or that you will give in all the time to the place of the Holyspirit. However, if you will choose the daily consecration of your heart plus yielding to the Holyspirit to guide you, you can grow into what your Heavenly Father wants to make out of you.
I hope you would turn your eyes on Jesus in this season. Set your heart and expectations on him for he has promised you and I that we will be fine in his will.
I wish you a great week✨
All my love + everything nice💜
The Purple Girl.
Refreshing and edifying thought.. Such beautiful writing this is. I appreciate your talent.
Thank you so much, The Purple Girl.💜